after weeks of senseless waiting, i came to the decision of moving on...no easy choice of course...for the benefit of everyone's sake, i guess i shall not be persistent, dun want things to turn sour...

sigh....wishful thinking on my part...but i guess i'll get over it...sometimes i juz feel like i lack sth....sth which could complete me...i hope this doesn't make me appear like some kind of despo person, coz this is really wad i feel...

now, guess i better pull myself up from all this...all i am hoping is that i will be given a sign...a sign which i will recognise...and know someone is out there...someone...which i may, well, like and in turn, be liked...but i noe again this is another of my wishful thinking....

and erm, i guess i straightened out my thoughts...will be running for both exco posts...considering myself lucky if i eva get into any one of them...

this has got to be the 1st post im revealing so much in such obvious manner...

seems painful....but i'll move on....