wad a day of emotions...and i dun mean positive ones...yes, i'm pissed....pissed at what? it isn't exactly directed at anyone...juz pissed...nope, i ain't happy, and i ain't glad such arrangements were made...wth...

greatz...now i'm made to go through a mental form of torture...wad's nxt...well, i dun deny that small tinge of smile coming over for that half a split sec...but i sure can't ignore the kind of complicated feelings i get rite after it...it makes me sick...it's hard to describe...in other words, i juz hate it...

and for the past few days, i dunno wad came over me...1st, the notion of trying out for CIP exco, nxt the library exco...i'm going nutz...

back to the subject of being pissed...oh yes, i'm definitely feeling the empty rage rite now...i'm lashing it out here coz i can't express it anywhere elses simply becoz this rage is not directed at anyone....and it wouldn't make sense to be telling anyone, ppl wld think i'm nutz...and the more i type, the more i felt it building up....crap, now i haf the idea of violence in my head...

guess i better calm down b4 this gets any worse....