I did it. I finally did it. No doubt it was a test of courage, the kind even the one with that of a lion may even freak out on...tho of course i did it with lotsa problems hounding me, but i still did it...never would i expect myself to summon that veri last bit of courage left in me at that moment in time, i swore i almost wanted to 4get everything and juz leave that place, it was too much for me to take...yea, i stammered and i stuttered, but i pulled through it. Now all i can do now is wait, patience after is supposed to be one of my virtues, but apparently i deem it invalid after ytd, i couldnt sleep well...every hr i wld pick up my phone to c if there's any incoming msg...then one came at 2.27am...and turned out to be another fren, a false alarm....sigh...went back to bed dreaming thoughts once again...

i painted a veri nice view for myself either ways....if it's positive, i'd gladly abide by everything that is requested of me and be a veri contented man...if it's negative, well, let's juz put it nicely...i'd probably wake up and mug...ignoring everything else of cuz...looking at that, i still benefit...

the incident of wad i did on thurs, i wouldnt mind doing it ten times over, of cuz at a slower pace, it did after all gave me two swollen thumbs b4 i went to bed(well, i was on the bed doing that)...nxt morning it healed to 2 pink patches which gave some lil stings once a while if i exert strength on them(it still does)...

it felt worse than anything...the feeling lasted for the whole day ytd...distracted and all...until that point in time...but i'll wait...wait till u gimme ur decision...