wad it takes to be a true gentleman...doing wad is best for ppl....not wad is wanted by them....doing wadeva that goes against u without complaints...sacrificing all personal benefits for others to let them gain some form of joy...doing all these without telling a single soul, resisting all selfish urges that may come up within ur thoughts.....that wldnt be a gentleman anymore....that wld be a true sage...

im no gentleman, im no sage....im onli human...its rite i do wad is good for me....its rite i should not give a damn abt anyone but myself...but no....i had to be a libran...one who considers more for others than for self...sigh...but its no reason why i should stop being mr nice guy...oh well...

here i think to myself the good ive done...hmm...nth big, but adds up to a lot...then i think abt wad ive done wrong....nth too severe either...the balance...quoting from this book ive read some time back 'there's no push...u'll haf to find a substitute to undo, to pay for the price...' everything that u want, everything that u need...it seems that u haf pay a certain price for it...sth u need to balance the scale again...

i live a good life...i have a lot of things that others dun...i dun ask for a lot of things coz i already haf them....i haf a more than decent pocket money...i may haf a strict dad....but i haf a mom who understands me...another balance...but i dun blame my parents for who they are...im contented with them, along with my sis who has been giving me a lot of material needs....

what balances the good life i lead then? my karma? no i dun think so...i think im balancing it with my attitude towards ppl...i empathise with them...i share my thoughts with them...i think in their shoes...and then to make them happy i give up some things along the way...mostly self-comfort...its tough to be attending to everyone's needs....its much easier to concentrate on one person...

yea, thats wad a true blue libra does....after all the sign is a scale...its all abt balance...i think i need a break....juz to balance up...to sort out myself...maybe i need to close my eyes and feel for once wad's it like to be selfish...and embracing it instead of rejecting it and thinking for others....

aww crap...baaaah...talking nonsense again....sigh....juz ignore me....im juz writing to fill up spaces in this blog...dun bother urself too much...im juz trying to let eveyone noe how good i think i am (subconciously i think)...oh well...heh, speaking of karma...maybe i need to do sth to improve it...